"In ruff times,
Tuff times,
Only music can clear your mind,
Music aloooone,
Takes me to Jah home"
[Music Alone by Ginjah]

I love music.

It's funny that being 23 years old one would think that mainstream, commercial music in its most modern form would be highly appealing to me. Not true. I hate "boogu yagga" music, even the kind that seems to have become indicative of popular Jamaican music.

"Jump up jump up" music has its time and place and can sometimes effect a vibe in me. I wouldn't expect to go to a street dance or be in the clubs and listen to cultural music, vintage reggae and old souls all night. Maybe this is why I am not much of a party animal. I don't care for the typical genres of music that bang in the clubs and as such I dont spare much time for partying. This is not to say that I wouldn't "bus a blank" or "put up mi gunfinga" for a particular "chune".

I appreciate music for its lyrical content but more so for the rhythmic value. I catch the beats long before I catch the words. This being the case a more melodious form of music that relaxes my soul, calms my nerves and clears my mind is what I normally go for.

I am also biased towards music. I will more readily lend a listening ear to my Jamaican "righteous music" and "singjay" tunes than any other genre that would appeal to my heart strings. But I do enjoy my fair share of neo-soul and rhythm and blues.

I have been told over and over that I am an old soul. That's true. But I rather continue to look and act my age and let my soul be old.

I just like to be alone.

I am a sociable person, very likeable and extremely energetic. I like to make people feel comfortable around me. Kick up their heels and enjoy my company but I've been hanging out by myself lately and I like it. I still maintain relations with the few friends I have but as much as we might say a quick hello over the telephone, and maybe "fass inna" each other's business a little, they don't see me.

I have a set of friends; two cousins, one of which is my bestest friend , and the other my best friend, that live three houses away from me. We haven't seen each other in a while. Maybe a slight glimpse and a small wave but not long enough to even hold a firm reasoning. As much as everybody has their busy schedules, we normally could spare time for each other. But no more. And here's the reason why.

My best friend has a new beau. My spirit hasn't taken much liking to him and I don't seem to know why. Maybe if I sat down and tried to figure it out then I probably could come up with something but for now I just stay away. She has confronted me about it because normally I get along well enough with her suitors. But I am just not feeling him. Could it be because he ruined one of our Girls' Nite In when he just entered the scene? Maybe!

Staying away from my best friend unavoidably affects the frequency with which I see my bestest friend. Largely because they live together, and most of the time spent with my bestest friend is spent while he is home.

Staying away from my best and bestest friends means getting back close to my bester friend. LOL!. Yes, my bester friend and I suffered a strained relationship about a year ago and the screws are finally being tightened. I really looked forward to the day when we would get back this close and I'm loving it. But she doesn't see me either.

Really if it wasn't for work, I do not think I would leave the confines of my house. No way! Not that I am a troublemaker or anything but trouble has a funny way of finding me and staying in is really worth the while. I think I'm going to keep this up!